So, yesterday was brutal!
I felt like CCCCCRAP!!! I woke up and within an hour was reaady to fall back asleep.... just after lunch i found myself closing my eyes day dreaming... you know that swwet part of sleep where you can still hear whats going on, but your also kinda dreaming at the same time? That happened again after dinner for 15 minutes.
I fell off the wagon..... while i was making supper i was being kinda cranky with the kids..... so i went oout for a smoke....the first one of the day... and the kids did the dinner clean up without my even asking, while i was out!
I ended up having 5 smokes last night.
Today, i had intentions WRT housework and such, so I picked myself up a tea from Timmies, and I have had around 6 ciggys today.... I only have three left in my pack, so Im hoping tomorrow ill manage. Ill likely get myself another tea tomorrow as i have ALOT to do!
Ive only managed 5 minutes on my bike..... and cadie and i walked to school today for her 'meet the teacher' interview, and back. Ive also been cleaning and such..which i feel counts towards activity.....its not sitting on the couch.....
My weekend.... well... its gonna be busy kinda.... I dont think ill be doing structured fitness, but ill be working my butt off.... i have to prep and pack for a trip tomorrow, and saturday we are taking off to Mattawa for some back country camping with my mom.... Dunno how i feel about it completely.... but its only for one night.... Mom is driving form Bracebridge to Mattawa saturday and back to bracebridge sunday.... so i only have to drive home from Bracebridge Sunday. That also means i have to get all my weekend work done tomorrow too... and i believe ill pick the kids up from school and head straight to Bracebridge...
Im tired at the moment, but i have to push thru and keep working.
I have done really bad with diet.... the day goes well, and im only a couple days in...Tuesday i did alright for dinner... i did eat 50% veggies....but last night, after a decent days eatting.... We had pancakes and sausage for supper....tonight is Spaghetti and meatballs.... But im gonna use a baby bowl for my spag, and have a plate of salad..and im skipping the meatballs; as i have had my protien for lunch. Ill be hitting the grocery store tomorrow for camping food... That i can do right.... I always take fruit and veggies, and oatmeal.... but I believe i will be spoiling myself and picking up Campbells Chunky Chicken Corn Chowder for dinner....its standard to have a hearty stick-to-your-ribs ( and thighs) dinner when camping. I wont be taking S'mores stuff, just marshmellows for the kids...its kinda difficult to clean them up in the dark from smores...so they wake up with chocolate and marshmellow still stuck to their cheeks.... I do manage to get their teeth clean atleast lol.
my biggest worries with the camping is bears, no bathroom, and that ive been a little bit out of whack with my meds...I think i need to up my magnesium...so ill be doing that today and hopefully it works. Mom said she knows what to do about the bathroom thing... regardless im bringing the Potty... that way the girls are able to manage, and mom, TJ and i can use moms method....
Anyhoo.... im gonna get back to work, and put in time on my bike this evening....might not get a chance to write agian till Sunday nite...
Ive gotten to speak to Jay which is really nice, and he got to talk to the kids last night.
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